Your Tears Are Seeds

Those who sow in tears
shall reap with shouts of joy!
He who goes out weeping,
bearing the seed for sowing
shall come home with shouts of joy,
bringing his sheaves with him.

(Psalm 126:5-6 ESV)

Much about this world is counterintuitive. God is coy like that.

In the valley of despair, all seems lost. We return over and over to that which makes us sad, hurt, or angry. Our thoughts seem to be hemmed in, and they move ever toward what causes us pain. This seems to be part of the grieving process, to fully realize what happens to us so we can deal with it. You have to go there before you can move on, it seems.

Like Newborns on a Battlefield

We stand upon a battlefield, and our souls are under attack.

We do not see the dark forces with their weapons of hatred, jealousy, and doubt. We do not notice their advance upon us. They tend to advance surreptitiously like snipers in tall grass. 

Nor do we notice heavenly forces, arrayed in ferocious righteousness. Their battle cries do not register to our ears, and we do not see them meet the enemy midfield in a terrifying display of might. We do not watch as they slaughter the enemy on our behalf.

You Are a Liar

You lie to yourself, other people, and God on a daily basis. I do it, too. While I believe very much in the power of words, I believe much of what comes out of our mouths - or keyboards - is delusional double talk.

And we don't even know it.

I am the first to say I value my wife but you won't see my snide remarks to her when I'm tired. I tell myself that I pour myself out for my kids, but I've had fits of anger with them that I will forever remember with great regret and shame. My half-hearted prayers are often lip service and are not matched by my intentions.