Sorry. Sorry that many Jesus people have told you crazy things. I know you are trying to make the most of your existence, just like I am. We all grasp for answers.
I hate what has been done to the term “evangelical.” You molded it into a straw man with the raw material of the moralists on the right. Apparently what is meant by the term is someone who is condescending and doesn’t like refugees. The dictionary definition still works but the political one is a big problem for me.
You need to know that my faith is not partisan, nor is it American. It is cosmic. What I believe about Jesus Christ—what he did, who he was, what he’s doing—transcends categories. My faith doesn’t provide marching orders to ballot boxes; it beams out into the cosmos into a bank of a billion unnamed stars.